How dare I.
While I sat on the stairs waiting for her to finally be glued to her bed in sleep I sat with my laptop reading, yet again, about the horrible Pittsburgh Zoo tragedy. My jaw slacked. My heart seized.
Two year old Maddox Derkosh, fell into the Painted Dog enclosure and was mauled to death.
Mauled, to death by a pack of Painted Dogs.
Things you only read about or see on the "news." Things that happen to OTHER towns.
Yet today, a local Whitehall family, just towns over from our publication's scope fell into the madness of this situation.
Right here.
In Pittsburgh.
Yet, I sat on my stairs wishing my child would, "JUST GO TO SLEEP."
How dare I.
That poor family. That sweet little baby. An unimaginable fate that played in my mind over and over while MY little 3 year old finally succumbed to sleep. Safe, in her bed.
Alive.
How dare I.
Worse yet. The mauling continued. The sickening comments made by some who find instances like these-- a time to attack a family that might never recover. They are worse than the dogs. Social media becomes the pack mentality. They mauled the mother alongside her son for lifting the child up on the railing.
We don't even know all the details, yet the pack has formed.
How dare they.
As a mother, this I know.
Whatever happened yesterday…call off the pack.
There are no words or comments that will be a worse punishment than witnessing the death of your child, let alone by such a fate as this.
She will crucify herself harsher and more intense than any comment ever could. She will drive nails into her skin until she can feel no more.
Every inhale will remind her of "what she could have done differently" from this day forward.
We mothers endlessly crucify ourselves daily for even the tiniest things, can you imagine something such as this on trial in your heart?
We are the worst judge and jury assembled, most assuredly.
Leave her alone and use this time to show the nation "The Pittsburgh Way."
Mothers, come together for this woman who may or may not have made one split second bad decision …like we all have.
Right here.
In Pittsburgh.
Yet, I sat on my stairs wishing my child would, "JUST GO TO SLEEP."
How dare I.
That poor family. That sweet little baby. An unimaginable fate that played in my mind over and over while MY little 3 year old finally succumbed to sleep. Safe, in her bed.
Alive.
How dare I.
Worse yet. The mauling continued. The sickening comments made by some who find instances like these-- a time to attack a family that might never recover. They are worse than the dogs. Social media becomes the pack mentality. They mauled the mother alongside her son for lifting the child up on the railing.
We don't even know all the details, yet the pack has formed.
How dare they.
As a mother, this I know.
Whatever happened yesterday…call off the pack.
There are no words or comments that will be a worse punishment than witnessing the death of your child, let alone by such a fate as this.
She will crucify herself harsher and more intense than any comment ever could. She will drive nails into her skin until she can feel no more.
Every inhale will remind her of "what she could have done differently" from this day forward.
We mothers endlessly crucify ourselves daily for even the tiniest things, can you imagine something such as this on trial in your heart?
We are the worst judge and jury assembled, most assuredly.
Leave her alone and use this time to show the nation "The Pittsburgh Way."
Mothers, come together for this woman who may or may not have made one split second bad decision …like we all have.
Our thoughts continue to be with this Pittsburgh family --yesterday, today and all tomorrows.
This is a facebook group set up to collect funds for the Derkosh Family.
1 comment:
I can't imagine what this mom is going through. This is exactly the time when the rest of us, other moms especially, need to come together instead of rip each other appart. I'm holding my own kids a little tighter today.
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