It's always difficult to admit that it takes a near tragedy to change how you run your life. I am that person. Now admitting to you that I ran my life differently 3 weeks ago than I do today. Three weeks ago my dear friend of 17 years suffered from a sudden cardiac arrest at age 35 years while jogging. It is a pure miracle that she is still alive. A PURE miracle. Most who suffer from cardiac arrest, with an enlarged heart as she unknowingly had - do not survive. She is still in a coma. I have seen her on machines that were propelling her body to live. I have seen my friend lying motionless for weeks. I have seen so much.
So much time is left when something like this happens. So much time left when have only the "quiet" between you , yourself and you. Time to question. Time to stare in the mirror.
Questioning your methods in life, your relationships and the way you treat others. You question.
I realized that if my friend was not in my life----- I would be beyond devestated. I have not done our friendship due justice. I realized that I hold back emotionally as a friend , as a mom, as a wife, as a sister and as a daugther. I hold back. I waste precious moments hoarding my own love…. keeping it to myself. Not reaching out. I am stingy with my love.
That's not going to work.
Everyday Krista makes tiny strides towards coming back to the person that she was before this happened. However I'm not certain that even when she returns to us-- she will be anything near that person she was.
I don't think any of us will be.
And it will be a good thing.
Happy Turkey Day Everyone-- celebrate and be thankful every single day. Don't hold back .
xoxo
supah
9 comments:
Just goes to show how thankful we should all be for what we have. You never know when a tragedy can strike! Sending prayers for your friend, and hoping you have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your family, Supah!
Sweet Supah .... you are in my prayers, as is your friend. Take care.
xoxoxo
Well written and so true. I know over the last seven months, my life and the way I live has completely changed in a lot of ways. I will never ever be the same. And as you wrote...that IS a good thing. Happy Thanksgiving, Debby with a Y. I can't wait for your friend to wake up and come back to you. (= Prayers and hugs.
Sending prayers to you and your family Supah. Tragedy really does strike fast - thats why you want to live everyday like its your last, love & live without regret. My heart goes out to you & I hope she pulls out it.
Thinking of you this holiday season and thanking God that you have the gift of sharing like you do!
I think you bring up an excellent point. Even after some of the things that I've witnessed over the past two years, including this with Krista, I still forget sometimes to be thankful for what I have and to "not hold back." But, I'm thankful for these moments that make me step back and remember to do this!
Blessings to you and your family, Supah!
Keeping her in my prayers.
I disagree with your assessment of yourself. You have shown me love since day one. Well....maybe it was day 12...you know....after I quit creeping you out with the stalking...
Hugs and Prayers
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